Of course no one knew about these
feelings as they were deep within me..I kept drinking, laughing, fornicating just as if all was ok. But it was not. I was alone, lost and God seemed silent.
One night at HMS Mercury the Signal School, whilst I was waiting to join a new ship, I met a
man who spoke with me about how God knew I was like this and that He, God had made a provision.
This man spoke about Jesus Christ, Who is the Son of God and came to die to take away my guilt and sin (for it was this condition that was keeping me away
from God). He told me that this Jesus was pure, perfect and lovely in every way and that He had deliberately and personally given Himself for me as an offering to God. He literally took my place. He died instead of me. This death was accepted by God by raising
Jesus from the dead and now He is alive - really alive and able to offer me...me..forgiveness and to give me the faith to believe and granting me the ability to repent and turn away from my sinful condition.
He gave me a new life, a new nature and a
new love to replace my old dreadful nature. I gave Him myself, He gave me Himself. I cannot be any clearer than that. That is what happened.