Emma from Scotland

I’d like to share with you some of the circumstances which led me to the point where I made a commitment to Jesus Christ and God’s Kingdom and invited Jesus into my heart as my Lord and Saviour.

I had always lived life at the fast pace dictated to by the society that we live in, juggling family-life, work commitments and responsibilities; barely having time for myself, to rest or reflect on the life I was living, or to understand what it was all for. I didn’t imagine that life could be any other way. I had no idea that my life could and would become totally transformed!

In 2002, life as I had known it came to a halt. I became ill, unable to work or cope with my responsibilities. I struggled with living and could make no sense of life. For the first time in my life I questioned why I was living and what the purpose of my life was. For me hope had almost died. Around that time, someone said to me...

“God must have thought that you were a very special person to have stopped you in your tracks.”

It meant little at the time, but I took comfort in it.

The Search

Over many months my search for a purpose and meaning in life led me to many books with diverse subjects. Although I had grown up understanding that there was a God. I had never had the time or inclination to explore this. I had always made my own way in the world, relying on myself only to study hard, attain qualifications, build a career and achieve in life. I was married, loved and had a beautiful young daughter. However, I now believe that my ill-health was God’s way of getting my attention; of giving me the time and space that I needed in order to sift my priorities. God took this opportunity to ‘speak’ in tones that I could not have detected had I continued living life at the normal, worldly pace. He was drawing me to Himself.

Hosea 2:14 ‘ I will lead her to the desert and speak tenderly to her.’

I then felt a great hunger to read and find out more about God. Christian friends and family directed me to books and I read anything and everything that I could. Slowly and with careful thought, I responded to God’s invitation to come to Him through Jesus and experience His forgiveness of my sins.

'In Him I found my resting place..'

My faith in Christ and then my baptism, marked the beginning of my journey of faith in God as there is a great deal of learning and trusting to do. I have had experience of the ‘old me’ being restored,forgiven, renewed and transformed. I believe that I have been brought out of the darkness and into the light, where I am discovering and will discover further, who and what God has created me to be. The fact that God is at work in my life gives me greater confidence and hope. I trust Him in all things, no matter the circumstances and I no longer have to strive and stress in my own strength as He has all the power and strength that I’ll ever need.

Philippians 4:13 ‘ I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.’

 Trusting God in all things and with everything has given me hope for the future and set me free to look at life and living through a new pair of glasses. My view of the world and of myself has changed. My outlook, attitude and priorities are different, and I have a whole new way of thinking and approaching life and whatever it brings. I have found the meaning and purpose in life through Jesus and believe that it is a mighty privilege to have been chosen by God to belong to Him.

John 15:16 ‘ You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit – fruit that will last.’

Moving Onwards

Although much of my journey of discovery was spent thinking, reading and then praying alone; it was not until I was able to share my faith with others when I joined an Alpha Course that was being held locally, and then through support and fellowship when I joined a local church, that my commitment to God became more real to me.

More than twelve years on… I am enjoying an ongoing, ever-rewarding and ever-deepening relationship with God. Life is wonderful now although it isn’t always easy! I know a peace and a joy that I had never experienced before I gave my life to Jesus. If times are hard or uncertain, I no longer  try to work things out myself, in my way or my own strength, I simply pray… and trust God to work His will and His way through everything. Believe me, God can and does work wonderfully and amazingly in your life ,if you just let Him … He has in mine!

In times of  fear and uncertainty and when I’m not sure if I can do something, the Bible verse that has always given me God’s strength and reminded me that He is with me is:

 ‘ So do not fear, for I am with you;

Do not be dismayed, for I am your God.

I will strengthen you and help you;

I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.’

Isaiah 41:10

 

EMMA'S Choice of Hymns 

 

VOICE of HOPE by LARA MARTIN

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HFJcDKgyG78 

The POWER Of The CROSS by Kristyn Getty

http://youtu.be/aowdjLeaCYs